Anne : “I can’t help but be lifted up on the wings of anticipation…as glorious as soaring through a sunset…almost pace for the thud.”
Marilla: “I’d rather walk calmly along with both feet on the ground and do without both flying and thud.”
I admire Marilla. I reluctantly admit to being head-in-the-clouds Anne.
Today was supposed to be for organizing finances. This task did not happen. Not one bit of it. Anne wouldn’t have done it either.
Executively deciding finances could wait and work could not, I set myself a big list. (Self-employment means no-one actually decided you would be good at this job except you. Does anyone else see the flaw in this plan?)
I did not set time parameters, forgot to schedule in dinner and bus stop pick ups, left a mess in the kitchen and my room, and did not complete half the things on my list. Everything I started led to another task and round and round it went.
I believe that the things we don’t tolerate from others are the very things we actually dislike about ourselves.
For instance, my children annoy me when they procrastinate, don’t organize their time well, forget things, or leave a mess when it would take just a few minutes to clean up. I come down on them for it; I want them to be better than me.
So…is it better to have high expectations, to reach for lofty goals and risk disappointment, OR… to set low expectations and feel elated when you invariably surpass your goals? Which way actually gets you farther ahead?
I recently read that visualizing your fairy tale perfect life is detrimental because it sets you up for disappointment in reality.** What constitutes reality?
If I want someone to know I’m not perfect in reality, but to believe I am perfect for them,and vise versa, is that settling? What constitutes settling? If you are happy does it matter? What constitutes happy?
This blog feels about as organized as my day. I got to the end and I’m not sure what the point was. Every answer begins the chase of new question. And round and round it goes…
Anne chased things out of her reach and ignored reality. In the process she had many flying adventures (often unintentional), and many thuds. She was happy in the end, but then so was Marilla.
On the other hand, they were both a work of fiction.
So… it has come to this!
As long as my accountant doesn’t read this there’s no harm done.
For the moment finances can wait…
Rating: Organizing Finances Day – (5 out of 10)
- Itchy Feet – 3 out of 5 (I’m Anne…words thrill me, not finances… but I do like to organize and accomplish a goal)
- Twitch – maybe I should see a doctor…
- Happy hour – 2 out of 5 (it’s hardly fair as I never even began the task, but I ended up feeling discouraged at what I didn’t get done)
What the heck does all that mean, you ask? Click here to get to the ‘Happiness Is…?’ page. You’ll find out why I’m doing this and if you scroll towards bottom of the page you can read about the rating system.
Tomorrow: Smile excessively. Use the calendar to view my happiness tasks for each day along with a brief description of the task and why I chose it.
- Word #2 (jpr100w.wordpress.com)